Breaking up with Ana

I seem to have a small obsession with the stationary shop: Paperchase. I just feel like it's such a magical place, where all of your stationary needs and wishes come true. Over the years I have brought MANY things from Paperchase, and although this is incredibly tragic when it comes to my bank balance...my   rewards card is full of points! Anyways...A few weeks back I went into the magical land of Paperchase  and impulsively bought a meal planning book. It has Llamas on it...LLAMAS! When I got a chance to have a proper look at it, it really motivated me to plan my meals each week to ensure I was eating properly and keeping myself hydrated. So last week, I sat down by myself and wrote myself a meal plan for this week Mon-Fri. Within my plan were loads of healthy meals and snack that I do not feel guilty about eating. I'm now on day 4/5 of preparing meals that I have planned in advance, and I've tried my very hardest to cook my meals from scratch. Most of the meals I have ...

Hello cherubs, I thought I would post really quickly on what is actually quite a big subject. Recently I've been listening to lots of 'TED Talks' to help improve my mood and self awareness. I found this particular video a couple of days ago, and I believe and can relate to every single thing that is said in here. People forget that there are so many more things important than appearance. The only negative I would give on this video is that it only focuses on females, but this is just as relevant to males. Daisy May xo Why thinking you're ugly is bad for you

I never thought I would be doing a book review on this blog, however it seems to have come to this! As I mentioned in my last post, I attend a recovery support group, and at this group they have a collection of books at the back of the room that you can take away, read and return. In February I decided I wanted to take a book away to read that goes by the name of  conquering anorexia  written by Clare Lindsay. The book follows Clare's journey with anorexia and her recovery, discovering the reasons behind her behaviours and finding ways to overcome them. I thought this may be a good book for me to read, to help me understand Ana and the difference between her and myself. I also found that it made me look at my past and possibly the reasons for Ana being part of my life. From reading the book, I found a lot of early behavioural similarities between myself and Clare. I realised that when looking back at my days in primary school that all I wanted, was to be liked and accepte...

In the past, I've tried to 'recover', but have always taken one step forwards and three steps back. However one thing that I have kept going to is an adults eating disorder recovery support group. The group runs once a month and is done so by two facilitators who set the direction of the conversation. There are ground rules at the group that are put in place in order not to trigger anybody. For example: no talk of calories or weight. I remember the night before going for the first time that I went, I was so nervous and really didn't want to go, but deep down inside, I knew I had to. All I could imagine was that scene from 'The Fault in Our Stars' when they're on the support group and they sit literally in the heart of Jesus, sing cheesy songs and quote messages of support in unison that really had no true meaning. However, I was pleasantly surprised when I walked into the room. First of all, I was offered a cup of tea. Tea is the way to my heart, so I a...

Since checking my post box this evening, I realised that my referral for the ED specific therapy has come through. The letter says that I'll have an assessment that will last 2 hours. I'm not really sure what I think of this, as it seems a long time to assess whether or not you qualify for help? However, I am just thankful that this has come through and I'm so excited to see what this next chapter brings. Onwards and upwards!  Daisy May xo

Who am I? Hello! My name is Daisy, I'm currently 19 years old and studying children's nursing at university. (Hopefully I'll graduate in 2019!) I still feel about 12, but apparently I'm now legally an adult? What is this blog for?  This blog is to help me during my recovery from Anorexia Nervosa (Ana).  On top of this, it's a way for my friends and family to see how I'm doing. It was my drs idea to do a blog as they felt it's something that would help me. This blog will mostly be for my own personal benefit, however if people read it and enjoy it, that's a bonus.  My ED story I'll try not to go into too much detail because there is a lot.  I first personally noticed that I had 'issues' with my eating when I was 15 years old, during year 11. (GCSE year!) I had a tough time as my parents split up out of what seemed like nowhere, therefore completely turning my life upside down. When I noticed that I wasn't feeling phys...