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I scream, You scream, We all scream for Ice Cream

18 months ago...

Ice Cream: ...
Daisy: CRIES 
Ice Cream: ??


So fear foods are a thing that you have to tackle in recovery. I was lucky enough to tackle a lot of my fear foods when I was in treatment, in fact I managed to tackle 95% of them which is great! However the one food I've always been 'funny' with is ice cream. I'd always used the excuse that I just didn't like it, and over time I tricked myself and others into thinking this really was the reason I didn't ever have it. But oh how far from the truth that was.

Until I tried it again properly when I was in treatment, I hadn't realised that it was actually LUSH (I keep saying lush...I can't stop...help!). In treatment I tackled shop brought ice creams, such as magnums, soleros etc. I found these hard, but I knew that the ice cream I feared most was scooped or tubbed ice cream. I got away without having it when I was away, and have only attempted having it twice since coming back from treatment. The first time I tried it I cried and had so much anxiety that lasted for days after the ice cream had gone. Since then I hadn't tried tubbed ice cream again.

Until yesterday.

Yesterday, me and my friend Kayleigh went to the cinema to watch the Lion King. It was incredible. I loved it. But enough about the cinema...the reason I mention it is because there was ice cream for sale. TUBBED ICE CREAM. I don't know where it came from, but I had the sudden urge to buy some. There wasn't any fear, only adrenaline. I went for it, and I demolished it.

It was so so so so good. I can't believe I just did it. Like a 'normal' person. No fuss. I didn't mention to Kayleigh that it was a fear food, so it literally felt so so normal, and not forced. 

I just wanted to write a post that hopefully will encourage people that it does get better, and it does get easier.

Recovery is a rollercoaster, with a lot of ups and down, but this was definitely an UP moment! 


Peace Out,

Dais xo

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