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A 'quick' intro to me

Who am I?

Hello! My name is Daisy, I'm currently 19 years old and studying children's nursing at university. (Hopefully I'll graduate in 2019!) I still feel about 12, but apparently I'm now legally an adult?

What is this blog for? 

This blog is to help me during my recovery from Anorexia Nervosa (Ana).  On top of this, it's a way for my friends and family to see how I'm doing. It was my drs idea to do a blog as they felt it's something that would help me. This blog will mostly be for my own personal benefit, however if people read it and enjoy it, that's a bonus. 

My ED story

I'll try not to go into too much detail because there is a lot. 
I first personally noticed that I had 'issues' with my eating when I was 15 years old, during year 11. (GCSE year!) I had a tough time as my parents split up out of what seemed like nowhere, therefore completely turning my life upside down. When I noticed that I wasn't feeling physically or mentally 'normal' I confided in my dad; who at this point said that he'd noticed my eating habits deteriorate about a year prior to my parents break up. So 15 year old Daisy decided to take a trip to the doctors to get some help before it effected my education and physical health too much. While there I was told that I wasn't 'sick enough' for specialist help from CAMHS, and was shoved on medication and referred to my school nurse. With no real support from anyone, as year 11 went on I very quickly lost a lot of weight and on top of that a lot of confidence. I became obsessed with food. All I could think about was food.  Anyways somehow I managed to come out of year 11 with 9 GCSE's grades A*-C, which I was over the moon with! 
During that lovely long summer, my mum, younger brother and I moved six hours away from where I had grown up to start afresh. I was well distracted in the summer by the move, getting to know the area and going on holiday- my bad eating habits lessened and I FINALLY started to feel like myself again. This stayed like this until college started. 

My first year at college was pretty lonely. I moved around friendship groups quite a lot, never really finding anyone I could rely on. When I finally did find my 'people', we named ourselves 'the loners'. I was super unhappy and started to become really depressed, which consequently triggered my ED again. On top of my ED symptoms, I turned to self harm and purging. Every night I'd get in from college and hibernate in my room. One night I had really bad suicidal ideation. I told my closest friend (who I've known since I was born) and she actively encouraged me to go back to the doctors for help. The doctors realised how much I was struggling and so tried their hardest to help me by upping my medication, and referring me to both a dietitian and a youth counselling service. 
From then on up until May 2016 my life was so much better and I was so much happier!! (My parents also got back together so that's a miracle!) 

Then came June. My cousin was tragically killed in a car accident just a few weeks before I started university, so again my whole world was turned upside down. Everything went downhill when I got to uni. I had complete control over my meals and portion sizes and Ana recognised that and took complete advantage of it. I went to my lowest weight in the quickest time and I just got progressively worse really.

However I decided in February 2017 that enough was enough and that I wanted it all to stop. I booked another doctors appointment and managed to get referred to a specialist ED therapy scheme and I also joined a monthly ED support group. This leads to now. The start of hopefully my FINAL big fight with Anorexia. 

Sorry for the long post,

Daisy May xo
 
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  1. Cool Catz12 March 2017 at 11:06

    I know it's difficult, but I'm so proud of you! <3 I believe in you O:) Kat x

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    1. Daisy May12 March 2017 at 14:29

      Thank you so much Kat. It means a lot :) x

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    2. Cool Catz19 March 2017 at 12:33

      Sending lots of hugs and support your way! <3 :) x

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  2. Unknown12 March 2017 at 14:57

    You can do this daisy. We love you so much, and we are so so proud of you. Beat this and become the most incredible nurse. The NHS will be so lucky to have you.

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  3. Daisy May12 March 2017 at 14:59

    Love you lots and lots Mummy! xx

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